But... That's the Good Stuff!
I make my own stretcher frames from hardware store lumber and pull my own canvases. I buy the cloth from fabric stores rather than art suppliers. I am the type of artist that believes "gesso" is an Italian word that means "overpriced house paint."
While I take pride in my DIY cost-cutting measures, I sometimes find that I tend to immediately lose inspiration when presented with the rare opportunity to use top-notch, quality art supplies. I immediately put on my kid gloves, start overthinking my every move, and keep reminding myself, "but...but... this is the good stuff." In other words, I get performance anxiety.
|Artist Jillian Long at work|
I'd like to say that I'm cured of my sketchpad anxiety and have filled countless pages of thousands of journals, but I'm still the same way. I always feel like the sketchbooks (being a proper art supply) are solely for my good ideas, and I hesitate to use them - preferring rather to scrawl my ideas on loose bits of paper that get lost in the shuffle.
My seven-year-old daughter, Jillian - an aspiring, creative kid in her own right - is the exact opposite of my careful reservation. She is driven to create and has no qualms about obliterating a sketchbook in a couple days, filling every page front and back. She may use ten pages just drawing cat faces in different styles - some with stripes, some with big eyes, some with crazy teeth, etc. When I used a new box of crayons I did so with care, trying to keep the points sharp and paper neat, but Jillian